Do you ever...

... Just wish that you could wake up and be married tomorrow?

I do, just about, oh, every single day.

I've really enjoyed being engaged, but to be honest, I feel like my life has been so busy lately that I really haven't had the time to really really enjoy it. I feel like there is so much to do and plan, but no time to get it done, and so much to look forward to, yet everything still seems so far off. I'm stick in a "limbo" sort of mindset with this whole engaged thing. 

I guess I've had this restless feeling this weekend because Dusty was pretty sick and so I spent the majority of my time tending to his ailments. This included:

~Heating up salt water for him to gargle and help with a cough

~Renting Scream 4 on Redbox even though I think those movies are stupid...

~Buying frozen yogurt for the both of us on Thursday (Ya know, to ease the sore throat)

~Sharing my new blanket that I just purchased from Bed, Bath and Beyond 

~Watching Back to the Future 1 and 2 per Dustin's request

~Cleaning the kitchen because I knew that that's the last thing Dust should be doing

~Navigating which is better for a cold: Mucinex or "Wal-profen" Cold and Sinus 

It gave me a small taste of what it might be like to be a wife someday soon. And the crazy thing, I enjoyed it! I usually get way annoyed with people who are sick and needy, but something about this weekend was actually kind of fun. 

Me and the sicky.

Now I couldn't rave about how great this weekend was without giving Dust a little credit as well. But that can't go without sharing some big news first. Most people who read the last post know that my recent job wrapped up last Friday and from there it was pretty unclear as to what direction I was headed in for work. I did sign up with a subbing agency on Tuesday and was told that I could start subbing within five days or so. I knew that provide a somewhat steady source of income and job opportunity, but still missed the idea of having a familiar setting every day.

Then on Thursday, my dad and I were driving to a doctor's appointment when the agency called to ask if I would be interested in LONG TERM SUBBING again at a middle school, teaching 8th grade geography. Um.... okay sure why not! I was literally in shock and so thrilled- until the woman on the line said I'd be starting MONDAY. Yes, as in like, tomorrow, Monday. So, my friends, tomorrow I will begin the new task of teaching middle school to 8th graders for one whole month. So that's the thing. I may be walking into this totally completely blind (I AM walking into this totally completely blind) but even if I hate it? It's a month long placement. I honestly couldn't ask for anything better right now, and I feel like this is just such a testament to God's plan and what he has in store for me. I look at this as another step in the journey towards where/what/who I'm called to. Teaching at the high school was step one, and an INCREDIBLE experience at that. Teaching middle school is a totally new experience that will provide me with other opportunities to develop my teaching style and learn new things. And I know that this will lead to other opportunities. I sometimes still can't believe that a year ago today, I was totally unsure of whether or not this was what I wanted to do, and now I'm here at a place where I'm going into my second placement totally on my own in the classroom. It's amazing to me.

But you also know how I handle change. And that's where the wonderful Dusty comes in. I couldn't have asked for more support and advice than what I got from him this weekend. I have been encouraged, lifted up, loved, and helped through him these past four days since I found out about this job. He is the most supportive and optimistic person I know- great comparison to my pessimism and insecurities. And it makes me realize that I am BLESSED. Blessed to have the support of someone I love, blessed to feel encouragement from a guy who I know loves me and wants the best for me, and blessed to be walking into a new opportunity that is rare and unexpected! And I swear if I was married right now, I would feel just slightly less nervous... only because it would be kinda nice to be able to go to bed tonight and talk through my anxiety with somebody rather than just myself....

But then I have to remind myself to pray :) 

So there is a quick life update for you packed into one blog post: I am once again temporarily employed, and I am dying/restless to get married to Dustin. I could maybe put off the teaching thing for a little while longer while immediately moving forward with getting married if it were up to me! But instead, I am diving right into teaching tomorrow and still four and a half months away from love and marriage. It's okay, I think I will be able to handle it.